It’s quite something to feel like I’m living the script of a movie and a psychological thriller at that. But this is where I find myself today with a build up that feels quite surreal to say the least.
Having formed a friendship a number of years ago where I opened my door and life: recommended our neighbourhood, school, mortgage advisor, homeopath even marriage counsellor and much more besides, all of which were accepted and incorporated. I have now found myself at the receiving end of their vitriol and harassment.
I genuinely have no idea what turned their energy, though I had always seen that they were guarded, holding back. I saw this as a trauma response and accepted it as part of their being, though now I wonder about what has been churning in their soul all this time.
And now I wait in daily angst for the next barb, the school WhatsApp belittling, the opportunity they take for slander: toxic, immoral, narcissistic, whatever judgement they wish to hurl that day. Even in my car I am unsafe from the intensity, when they decide to undertake and swerve in, two cars ahead causing hooting and braking from the cars behind.
The behaviour is deranged and irrational, no matter what I say, or don’t, or even any attempt to appease, it’s all taken as fuel for their obsessive inner fire. And how can I escape when are lives are so intertwined?
There is nothing I can do but engage as little as possible although even then I’m accused of being rude. Legal recourse is on the horizon, but do I have to wait for injury or damage for that to happen? Will it happen? I honestly cannot say. I once would have been sure that that was never in their make up but now I hesitate. Where are they going with this, what is their purpose? And why me….
*Single White Female is a 1992 psychological thriller
First published on social media on 26th June 2023