A couple of dear friends have recently confided their frustrations at where they are at emotionally. They have done ‘work’, they’ve uncovered, examined and released some of their wounded places and they feel like they should be in a better place than they are.
I get that. Doing the work often releases these bubbles of happiness and connection; these moments of awareness where I can feel in the flow of life, love and the universe. Sometimes these bubbles last for months at a time, sometimes only hours or days, and in between times I can wonder if they were real or will ever be attainable again.
Whilst listening to my friends in recent days, I came up with a metaphor that feels realistic to me. The dot to dot drawings….
If my life is a dot to dot drawing and each dot is one of those bubbles of universal understanding and connection, the spaces inbetween are the moments of confusion and wondering.
There are times in my life where the dots are so close together that I almost surf between them, that the difficult moments are so brief I can feel the flow of universal love supporting me to the next dot; and there are times where the leap between dots feels like a chasm so large I lose my faith that I can ever experience those moments of soul love again.
The entire picture is my whole life, I am not going to hit that final dot, I am not going to complete the drawing until my last breath on this earth. That makes sense to me, that it is an impossible expectation to be in that dot state at all times but the more dots we experience, the clearer the picture becomes, our greater understanding grows despite the fact that our confusion can still appear with regularity.
This dot to dot will be framed and displayed as a reminder for me during the connection and the disconnect.
I hope it helps you too xxx